It's a feeling that I get when you ask me what I'll do next. It's not a conversation that I'm ready to have just yet. Not yet. Lately all I wanna do is sit around and talk about death. So I do my best to forget all the lives I could've lived if I just gave up on this. But it is too late the sun is already setting and I am too far from home to make my way back. No more childish fantasies. No more holding you in my dreams. No hope that anyone hears me. No trace of me anywhere. These days it seems like no one hears a single word I try to say until I'm screaming. I'm losing all my hearing, don't know what I believe in. I'm losing all my feelings. Will I lose myself? Become someone else? Am I invisible just because you can't see me? Did I make you up so something would haunt me? Am I the one your grave flowers for? I don't even have a future anymore. I am just a ghost that you ignore. Am I but a picture on your wall? Just another symbol of your loss. Do you even feel me holding on? Did you ever feel me at all? Am I the one that holds your hand when you do your secret moonlight dance? You're the one I'll never understand, even if I had another chance. But it is too late the sun is already setting and I am too far from home to make my way back. And there is too little time to say goodbye. I'm the one your grave flowers for. You don't have to grieve me anymore.
credits
from Verses,
released October 30, 2016
All songs written by Vivian K
Recorded, mixed, and mastered by Arik Victor at Creep Records Studio in Philadelphia, PA.
Video Directed & shot by: Austin LoCicero
Edited by: Amy Johnson
Produced by: Voidwalker (Ian Neisser)
Special thanks: Ian Ross / Patrick Hays / Darby Irrgang
Produced by Jesse Gander of Japandroids & White Lung, the latest from Philly’s Fire in the Radio is full-throated rock & roll. Bandcamp New & Notable Apr 6, 2020