I'm finally gonna kill myself. I've got it all planned out like a wedding. They say you've got so much to give, oh well. I give up I'm ready. It's really not all that tragic that nothing I did really mattered. If you could somehow save me, save your strength so you don't blame me. This winter I'll be twenty five and all I wanna do is die. For the first time in my life, I've made up my mind. Yes this is a cry for help but does that make it any less decisive? I'm just another book on the shelf. Does it make me any less insightful? It's not just an impulsive solution, it's my life's work's timely conclusion. No more social constructs. No more sayin life sucks. This winter I'll be twenty five and all I wanna do is die. For the first time in my life, I feel fine. Soon enough I'll be dead and you won't ever see me again. All my problems in my head just like every word I left unsaid. It's not like I really need you to tell me not to but maybe I do. I've been struggling for so long for reasons to live and now that I'm gonna be gone they all seem so stupid. It all seems so stupid. I can't wait to die and leave this hideous world behind.
credits
from Verses,
released October 30, 2016
All songs written by Vivian K
Recorded, mixed, and mastered by Arik Victor at Creep Records Studio in Philadelphia, PA.
Produced by Jesse Gander of Japandroids & White Lung, the latest from Philly’s Fire in the Radio is full-throated rock & roll. Bandcamp New & Notable Apr 6, 2020